ok la I know my blog is rusting but I seriously got nothing special to blog about and all my posts are quite sad and dull. there are most of my feelings so you couldn't expect much.lol

but this post is gonna be dull again sorry.

trials results were out and some was quite expected.
truly bad.
truly sad.

I'm sad not because I didn't prepare for exams and got bad results.
I'm sad because I still don't really know the way to "answer" or "tackle" questions which I had this problem even since AS.
=(

and I'm sad because my Alzeimer's seems to be coming back at the wrong time. I can't remember things easily and I forget them easily. if its only for normal stuff it would be just alright but if its for my studies, please don't.
=(

I don't know how soon is A2 coming but its time to prepare and its kinda late I would say to actually just get started but its better than not starting at all.

good luck and battle for the best.

Make your decision wisely, for you might not know how it could turn out to be.

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Reminiscence

Reminiscence
..because its great to have it once in a while

playing the Romantic Classics cross-genre musics which we bought the other day on the player
soon we search through the cupboard
we found many good CDs
tuning to old love songs
remind us alot of our pasts
and then to timeless classics by some famous musicians

while we were viewing our photos
from the childhood to our trips
we talked we laughed we enjoyed

I love the 6 hours we spent on musics and reminiscing in our pasts
I never knew the feeling can be that good
<3

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I HATE TROUBLEMAKERS!!

go live your own life la don't come ruin people's life

I'm fine with you if you ever wanna ruin your own life or what-so-ever but please don't come ruin my life and mess with my life

so distracting enough

its just so because of you that we have to bear with it.. DIE OFF la.

can you ever use your damn brain, if you ever have one, to think RATIONALLY, act MATURE enough and stop causing so much problems?!
behave yourself la

WTF

am already very stress with my exams
and now you're like one on-set nuclear bomb that can set off anytime
external factor which I can't avoid at any point
sigh

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they stayed

G.I. Joe and The Proposal
to be frank, I just love to watch movies in the cinema, I don't know why.
well I just wish to have some fun, maybe a little will do, by watching two movies today.
the former one was not bad, action movie, not much storyline to be elaborated, handsome guys and hot girls, nanotechnology, and some crazy scientists.
the latter one which I heard alot of good reviews about it, and it turned out to be quite overrated for me. its just purely my opinion. its a comedy, I must say, but er, I don't laugh most of the time that I think I should laugh. well my sister did enjoyed laughing. storyline was.. hmm, quite lacking of what it seems to be having in a romance movie.
these two don't seems to entertain me much. lol.

one thing is, I love to go out with my sis. =) too bad my younger sis couldn't join..


things happened, and they will never disappear.
its just like those cracks on the wall, how much you try to recover it to the original ones, they will never be like one because there will be scars, and they are no longer how they are.
we chose to forget, chose to ignore it and chose to erase it, but they're still there, always existing.
for things that happened, they stayed, deep down in a corner of my heart.
I can choose to forgive it, but I can never forget it.


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slept at 2am yesterday.. and I've been waken up at 2.30am by a weird but a kinda scary dream which I literally forced myself to wake up.. (sorry if I waken the 2 person that I sms-ed to..)
and I slept back after I've calm myself a little..
6.45am, it came to my suprise that I woke up at this time. I've never wake up at this time before on Saturday if I'm not waking up for a reason.
yet, I woke up, because of another dream.

sigh. disturbing.

thanks to ah sok whom I sms-ed to at 2.30am and she left me messages at msn 'coz she thought I can't sleep so she went online.. >.<

and thanks to YOU who never reply my message.. and for not asking at all.. I thought you're the one that I could turn to at that time but turned up to be quite disappointed..luckily that dream wasn't that scary till I've to yell.
you know who you are..


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out of my randomness

I want to watch...
The Proposal *16.8.09*
G.I. Joe *16.8.09*
Ghosts of Girlfriends Past
Harry Potter
Obsessed *not showing*
Public Enemies *not showing*

I don't mind having a movie marathon if you're willing to accompany me..lalala~~
faster come date me for movies la I want to watch them at cinema!! >.<

btw, I will definitely miss my sis sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!
*burst into tears*
you better miss me ah
*burst into tears again*
though its within my reach but its quite far as well so I can't visit her everytime
*burst into tears and again*

ok and AS results is coming out
save me
that's the first thing come across my mind when I woke up this few days..
too stress
=/

end with my story here with 2 spoons of rice in my dinner plate besides me.. bah! =p

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Why don't you think on behalf of me..
on why I wanna do so..
and why am I doing so..
that I hope for your good.

do u know how I feel..?
that everytime I feel that, what I did was wrong,
for you.

I feel so sad

I don't have much strength left, to withstand the high pressure..

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hate last minute preparation

tests getting on my nerves

August
something big gonna change

September 1st
Trial for A2..
omg omg omg

but, am not motivated enough yet..
p/s:out of a sudden,I do miss you,really.but,disappointment brings me down till the extent I can ignore how much I miss you.
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8 hours

Siew Lee says, she has another fantastic record breaking today..
simply because she has a "nap" from 12+ to 8.30 pm today..
lalala~~

and she says, she doesn't think she can sleep tonight..
or maybe she can?
haha

because I know that I will be sick,
because I know that eventhough I wish I could be sick,
I won't be doing so..
and I know I won't let myself to self-pity..
though at times I feel weak
my emotions won't show out
because I know there's no need for sympathy
and I know I don't deserve to have one

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July

Do you even realise that its July now?

its so fast. time and tides wait for no man.
AS over and now its A2.
omg talking about this can really freak me out.
bloody hell damn very stress lor.
and I somehow realise this because I talked something to my sis today.

omg I'm so gonna miss you! >.<

I don't care.I will on my web cam everyday and you too.lol
but I scare I will be too busy with A2 and wouldn't online that often which I know this is crap.lalala~~

anyhow I will miss the moments..=/

you! better miss me also! hahaha.

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stand

You:What makes you take a stand?
Me: Depends.

eventhough this question was asked long time ago, but I still remember it 'coz it was the similar thing happening now like what it was that time.
if you still remember this question, the answer would be "now".
last time I said treat it as "cold war", this time I will say,
no more cold war.
the war is over.
everything ended.
get it?
you will, with your sixth sense.
why?
'coz you just don't give a damn about it
and am tired of all the things that I do

if you know who you are..

memories are memories.they stay,store,and save deeply in my heart.
no matter what, friends are still friends.

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Gratitude

this is a short post, 'coz I just wanna say BIG THANK YOU(s) to these 3 person below..

ma sis
who bring me shopping and had lots of fun.. wee~
ma ah sok
who listens to my mumblings almost all the time and our "domino day" is great! bubuu.. (lol)
and ma dear friend, Adrian
who still cares for me so much that even you're at NZ..and still "click" to me..(that proved that distance is not a problem.haha.)

I know I sucks in saying thank you and stuff but deep in my heart, you guys are seriously precious people that I'm very grateful of having..

I can endure the pain, but that doesn't mean that I have no feeling at all.
afterall, I'm still a gal..where I also need what a girl really needs, at times..

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Reborn

nightmares, unbearable.
unreal, waken up.

thoughts, reborn.
perhaps, a new begin.

I need to start a new life.maybe, going back to what I was previously.
being wondering too much in the fantasy world of mine and might as well once again lost myself,
I have to, need to, and must pull myself back.
drag me to the world of yours. or. drag myself back to the world of mine.
you choose it.

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first of all, really thanks to bear bear.. =)=)
alot, I mean.
you seems to be only one who really care. *touched*
I will claim it from you if I really need it. hehe

well, my sisters of course. *winks*

and my ah sok..

oh ya, CK and the others who don't know and make fun. I enjoyed it.
lalala~~ better not knowing than knowing.


p/s:ended.
if everything seems not to be appreciated,
if nothing seems to be of any importance,
why not put an end?
am not gonna hurt myself anymore.

-End-

been wondering why I didn't update my blog?

its been ups and downs after AS exam, more downs I would say.
am seriously down now and have no mood at all.
taa-daa~ you can't see that? yesh, you wouldn't see that.
no, am not emo.
just sad.
I felt like crying out loud, I think I did(in college haha you wouldn't know that I told you), but, no, I won't do that for your info.

but, I don't know how to describe the feelings now.
I really don't know.
and I don't know what to do..
=/

what I did today was, a 5-minute-walk from the bus stop to my house, I took 30 minutes. I went round walking really slowly and swing, of course.
seriously need more of this.
I need mind-relaxation.
probably should escape for some vacation? haha

anyhow, Genting was still fun =)=)

p/s:When its gone, its gone..

its when I needed a shoulder to cry on,
a person to support me,
a caring message to warm me,
that I couldn't find any..
='(

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