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I rely/trust/believe/watever on my feelings, who cares if its wrong, who cares if its not the right one to choose, who cares if I ever make mistakes, who cares if I will regret, who cares if I will cry, who cares if I will ever wanna turn back...

WHO CARES.

That's my decision, and its going to only matters me, not you, not her, not him, not anybody else.

They never promise life is easy,
they just promise its worth living.

Sometimes.. I will just feel like cry out loud/shout out loud in which away I can think of, but I would just stop and step back.
Hidden it in somewhere I probably couldn't find or I don't wish to find.
Let it just kept in my heart and let no one knows.
Well, you will probably don't know when.

haihz.

Being like a studying machine is nothing I wish I will be. neither in the future.
But that's the only possible step that I could take now.
I love my life.
I'm still enjoying my life.
or am I not?

haihz.

Want, need, must, wish, hope, which is your priority?
The root of education is bitter, the fruit is sweet.

haihz.

Why, why, why and why?
Unknown after unknown.
Blur, blur, blur and still blur.
Accept or not, still have to accept.

haihz.

A-levels is tough.
I know.
but since you know,
why don't work hard for it?

If you lack the courage to start, you have already finished.

haihz.

I'm back to my abnormal lifestyle.
not having proper meal.
eating late.
gastric.
night cat.

haihz.

I think I need a torch light.
or not just some light.
but I know I'm stubborn.
I wouldn't take it for 99.99%.
unless...

haihz.

Suprisingly,
my sister,one who is very close to me,told me that,
she sometimes don't actually know what I am thinking..
she said, I look just the same all the time..
quite shock to know this.
but I told her, if you can know/read my minds, then, great.
but if you don't, I don't blame you, since you are just like anybody else.
I don't need to write feelings on my face.
if you can read it, means that we have that same frequency.
if you can't, it doesn't really matter, 'coz anybody else is just like you.

do you?

haihz.

Sometimes I just overwhelm with too many things,
and I blindly live my life.
and I come to realise it.
and I don't know what I need/want.

I need to find myself.

haihz.


p/s:If you feel the way I feel, you will understand.


-End-

New sem

So its 2009 now.

and its Semester 2 now.

and exams are coming soon.

ok, you might think I'm a little bit crazy to talk about exams now since most of us just got back our results.

how about Chinese New Year?

yeah, it's coming soon.^^

and..

test 4 is just right after CNY.

how cool is that?

=.=

I seriously think it's time to study.

and when I say it I mean it.

I would like to say sorry to you guys first,

if you ever feel neglected by me,

never talk to you,

never bother you,

or never notice you..

maybe I become too crazy to study.

gomen.

I can't let my laziness to continue rule me as it did for my first sem.

so guys,

if you find me too boring, as in, I always ask you questions on studies, you can ignore me. :S

well,

we can study together however, if you guys wish to. =D

anyways,

have to get back to homework. =(


Good luck to diploma students who are having their exams next week. =p

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Bored

I was bored.

Seriously bored.

Really very bored.

Out of a sudden feel so bored.

So..

I went upstairs and started to find things to do while my sister was conveniently using her dear laptop.

and..

I started to camwhore around..

and..

I get bored again..

and..

I spotted the whiteboard of my sisters'.

/gg

Whiteboard is meant for me to vandalize!

XDXD

People,

I warn you guys first.

I'm sucks in drawing.

Very, I mean.

So if you don't wanna spoil your beautiful eyes,

you can just leave here as soon as you feel uncomfortable with your eyes.

=p


At first, I really got no idea on what to draw.

So I wrote this..



and..


I got this nice head massage from her with her Winnie The Pooh soft toy. >.<
taaaadaaaa... revenge! xD


aiks.... =D


this is nice.. =p


Damaged.omg.damn ugly writing la..she still say its fine. =.=


Sounds familiar..? =D


The Oh My Loves. =p


The Fei Pohs..XD


Song playing..


Actually I think this is kinda cute..

although..

at first I planned to draw a Mickey Mouse..

so..er..

I ended up with this "cute" rabbit..

I didn't continue to draw the mouse..

'coz I seriously scare what I will end up with.. xD

since my sister don't really like the rabbit I drew..


mutated rabbit I will name it. =p

Still remember the last few post where I tried to draw a pig where I eventually failed?

yes!

Remember?

Nevermind if you don't..'coz..

I'm doing this again..XD

and..


hahahahah. it looks so funny! xD
FAILURE again. >.<


I tried some new thing this time..

teddy bear..

yeah..

but some emo teddy bear..

and..


=.=''!!

Don't you think it seriously look like teddy bear+ penguin??? XD


hahahahaha.

oh no!

Bearguin sad jor..


XDXD

I was thinking there's been some time since the last pizza I ate, although I do eat alot, but I miss pizza. >.<

And my sister was complaining that my pizza looks like ice-cream and stuff.. bla bla bla..

so I asked her to draw for me..

and..


wth? haha.

at first it was something more funnier. xD

I guess she's been studying advertising too much. =p

hehe.

so I decided to draw on my own.

and I know I'm not gonna screw my lovely pizza.

and so show how much I love pizza.

and...


I still screw it anyway. XDXD

You guys enjoy my drawings?

say yes please... T_T

jkjk..

and finally..


yeah~ hehe.


I know you guys must be thinking:"damn you Siew Lee!wasted my time on this lame drawings.now u better off the light and go sleep!"haha.


Enjoy ya day~

=)



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Border

31st and 1st.. it's just one day different..

How I spent it you might ask..

on the last day of 2008 and very first day of 2009..

I spent it with people that I truly wanna meet..

people that I haven't meeting for long time..

people that I think I wanna spend with..

and I'm very grateful that I didn't wasted the 2 days..

p/s:people out there that I didn't meet in these 2 days don't be sad kay. doesn't mean that I don't wanna meet you guys but I can't split myself right. =(


on 31st, I met up with my 2 best friends, Xin Ying and Yue Fen, at KLCC for a movie.
We chosen "1". haha. Bedtime stories. not a bad movie though. hehe.
the last time I met them were during Yue Fen's birthday, so this time is the late celebration of my birthday. =)
went to Subway to have our lunch. not too satisfying.
went up to McDonald's after can't decide any other food to eat.
3 Mcflurry ended up. haha.
Chit-chatted like last time and I have to left earlier 'coz of the bloody tuition class later.
somehow I hope the 3 of us, the oh my loves will continue to be like this, I mean, at least celebrate each other's birthday forever and ever and ever next time. XD

after tuition class was my "sisters reunion".
ok eventhough we see each other everyday and we even sleep together, but its very rare for us to gather and eat and talk together.
went to Feeling's cafe as a pre-new year celebration.
didn't stay there and countdown.
went back home and countdown with my damn lovely computer. XD



on 1st Jan 2009, the very first day of 2009..
its our high school reunion which will be held every year on this date.
and this is the 2nd year it has successfully run. =p
venue will be the freaking far Mid Valley.
1.00pm.
I was late.. hehe.
anyway,
they were having lunch at Sushi King.
ok, the last time I been to Mid Valley was a year ago, which is for the reunion as well. haha
so I kinda get lost and don't know how to go there.
chit chat as usual.
having fun talking to them.
step them.
joke with them.
and
most of all..
camwhore-ing with them..
xD


Vian, Xiang, Mae, and Ruru.


with Xiang.


with Ruru.she's getting more and more pretty. =p


with lou dao.


with Sook Yee.


with Eve.


oops. Vian and I closed our eyes. =p


Sushi King.


Group photo before going back.


infront of Big Apple.

some photos are not with me.
gonna upload when I got them.
people, see ya next time@ next year at Times Square. =)

went back kinda early at 4pm.
kinda tired, however.
damn the bloody public transport to Mid Valley.


and here I am..
happily blogging for the very first day of 2009..

Don't waste your time..
you should live life to the fullest..
without realising..
its already 2009..
and then 2010..
and then 2011..
and then 2012..
and then 2013..
and then count yourself.. XD
so..

enjoy ya day! =p


-End-

2009

Happy New Year 2009 =)

So fast a year passed..

so fast leh..

really very fast leh..

how come so fast de?

haha.

too sien ord.. >.<

*oh I realised that this post is kinda meaningless compared to other's blog >.<
so I gonna rewrite it.
adoi.*