安静

安静
比我相像中
来得
更有力量


不清楚状况
不乱说

不是当事者
不参与

不是另个人
不猜测

不问，不说，不发表，
就别胡乱把矛头指向他人

不问，不说，不发表，
就别在事后暗地里的埋怨

不问，不说，不发表，
就别在背后定下个人结论


意见，意见
意见多多
讨论多多
没结果

有时
不重要的意见
没有必要
告诉别人

有时
不发表个人意见
不是没有主见
只是
不见得个人意见
来得
重要

我
有时
宁可
拥抱安静
也
不愿
沉溺于
繁闹的
都市里


在心中
寻找着
别于
喧闹城市
的
平静


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血

当
心上的痛
不是因为捅进心里的刀
伤痛的
不再是因为流出来的血
操心的
不是因为失血过多而导致的后果

.....


或许，
你未曾想过，
用一把刀捅进心里的感觉。

没有必要，
让自己
去承受一些
连你自己都不清楚的感觉。

是麻痹？
是心痛？
是流泪？
是感叹？
是失望？
是无助？
是盼望？

你分辨得到吗？

你又可曾想过会如此的难受，难过，难挨？

...

一阵阵的痛，
千篇一律，
不断的
往心里去。

阻止不了
也无可奈何。

手中的纱布，
又可为这一阵阵的伤痛
带来何种的帮助。

...

心中淌着血，
不断徘徊在血液里。

怎么流也流不出

痛哭着
说
一切会过去

祈祷着
说
这一切都将是过往，
不堪回首的，
不值得留念的。

思考着
说
难道没有更好的方法？

除了矛盾，
仍是矛盾。

...

默不作声
不是逃避

开怀大笑
不是遗忘

漠不关心
不是冷漠

按兵不动
不是停歇

或许
只是
还没了解
不动
也是动的一种
不说
也是说的一种
漠不关心
也是关心的一种

...

堆积着
慢慢的
血
成
血块
不再流在血液
埋藏在
心底里的某处
永远
毁灭不了


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3am

It's 3am now.

and Im still here.

I know I shouldn't be.

but I simply can concentrate more at this time.

and I simply can do work at this time.

so I simply go and change my biological clock.

which is,

definitely killing me.

:S

but if I ever found a solution for this,

I wouldn't be here.

>.<

Chinese New Year is coming..

I'm kinda of excited..

but still have to study..

simply because Test 4 is after CNY..

おやすみなさい


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Mosquitoes

its 1.40am now.

and due to my laziness, oversleep, and not doing homework habit, haha,

Im now here scratching the damn brain of mine (if I ever have one),

to do the damn pure maths questions.

I know, I sucks in add maths, really sucks. :S

So people, I will be grateful if you are to lend a hand to me for those stupid questions.

besides,

I'm having a serious war with MOSQUITOES.

DAMN YOU MOSQUITOES.

I HATE YOU!!

Ridsect is just besides me.

and I don't know why mosquitoes like me so much.

go away please.

deng.

>.<


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Swim

Monday, 12.1.09

Classes from 11am onwards were cancelled.
Our class started on 10am.
How great right? xD
Went for Mr.Loh's Chemistry lecture at 8am.
then sneak in to SN9H's Biology tutorial.
=p
All thanks to Seow Yen.haha.

So after GP class at 11am,
followed Chai Liang and the gang to swim. xD
Basically Lee San and I didn't swim. just the guys.

Pictures.

Swimming pool.


This picture.. is abit.. er.. funny? haha.


CHAI LIANG. the fella who splash water over us. =.= and get scolded. haha.


the victim, Tharma. all wet.


peace.=)


3 guys. oh no no.18SX. cannot show over here. XD

After awhile, we went over to Hao Ting's house. not really his house, but where he stay all this while.
GOSH HOLLY MOLLY.
I can't imagine its really that.. messy.
I know guys should be like this, I mean, they stereotyped guys to be like this,
but this is seriously over for me.XD
simply because I saw guy's room/house before which is so tidy. =p


Entrance.


Does this even look like a kitchen? =.=


so-called living room.


the bread Lee San and I found there.


View from the small balcony.




Room.



I was complaining all the way when the first step into the "store room". ok well.
I simply cannot stand because I thought my stuff was kinda messed up but when I saw this, and I seriously know what "messy" meant.
Lee San was fighting with mosquitoes all the way.
Please don't take me to this house again. :S

I was starving from the early morning till we got to Genting Klang and finally settled down at House Cafe for our lunch.
I'm so in love with cheese so I ordered Cheese Chicken Chop, if that's the name.




Lee San's.

Nothing to do over there.
So Chai Liang and Hao Ting played chess.
Since I am noob in it, frankly speaking, don't know how to play, can only stare at the chess. XD




Went back tiringly, eventhough did basically nothing. =.=


=p

Another tiring day~



p/s:Simply because I care more than I thought..


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