不够成熟 Immaturity

Siew Lee says that.. she has something to tell her friends, whoever is involved.

No, she's very calm now and she's doing the sane thing. just listen to her craps.

Siew Lee says that, she knows that she had changed alot, in a bad way, without her realisation.
Siew Lee says that, she lose herself, and it caused her the major changes.
Siew Lee says that, she wasn't rational, as what she is last time.
Siew Lee says that, she was rather emotional and lose her logical mind, few months back.
Siew Lee says that, she caused alot of problems and alot of misunderstandings.
Siew Lee says that, she hates to lose herself, especially when she is not aware of it.
Siew Lee says that, she knows, now, that last few months she was rather silly.
Siew Lee says that, she is going to get herself back, the one that she and everyone else likes.
Siew Lee says that, she is trying her best to save everything, inspite of the stress she has.
Siew Lee says that, she has to bear the pain even when others think she is not suffering.
Siew Lee says that, she knows that she is immature.
Siew Lee says that, she knows that she is not good in handling things like this, when it is the first time.
Siew Lee says that, she was not sane, few months back, because she couldn't be analytical and solving her problems like when she is dealing with others people problems.

Siew Lee wish to say, Sorry to everyone.
Siew Lee wish to say, she is lucky, because everyone does not leave her, when she is the one that chose to leave everyone.
Siew Lee wish to say, she knows that her friends do care about her and her problems, eventhough they are not directly involved in it.
Siew Lee wish to say, she is glad that she has met bunch of good friends.
Siew Lee wish to say, she is grateful with every friendship of hers.

Siew Lee hopes that, the 2 friends of hers will believe in her words, in her works to save everything.
Siew Lee hopes that, the 2 friends of hers will know that, she really treasures them.
Siew Lee hopes that, the 2 friends of hers and her will be like how they be last time.
Siew Lee hopes that, the 2 friends of hers have faith on her.

Siew Lee knows that, it is rather ridiculous that everything will be solved in a blink of eye.
Siew Lee knows that, it takes time for everything to recover.
Siew Lee knows that, it is kinda impossible for her to convince them with her words now.
Siew Lee knows that, it is rather hard for them to have their whole heart trusted in the friendship now.
Siew Lee knows that, it will somehow be solved.
Siew Lee knows that, it is another hardship that God is trying to give them.

Siew Lee really do mean every single words here.
Siew Lee really do hope everything will be fine.
Siew Lee really do know her rationalness will return to her.
Siew Lee really do know that, that was her fault.
Siew Lee really do realise that she was childish last time.

当局者迷,旁观者清
Siew Lee thinks that she does proves this, due to her immaturity.

Siew Lee will grow, because Siew Lee knows she is going to be rational again.

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