I'm freeeeeeeezing

nails are purple-ish
and i can see those blood vessels on my hand
pale like those vampire
lol

Spot Kah Ern here *ahem* I bet you didn't see me.=p
Ah sok's dear
Winson o.O
Yasini
Dennis?

but no leng zais or leng luis. =D

I neeeeed food. lol

is it nice to eat McFlurry under this kinda of condition? hmm..
xD

Can't express

(yes yes I know I shouldn't be here blogging. >.<)

its another day I spent with 2 people that I treasure alot, real lot. Despite the hot days before this, today was an exceptional, raining.
I thought you couldn't make it at first as it was heavy rain and believe or not, I keep check my phone see whether there's message or call from you in case you can't make it or what. lol.
Seriously the honey dew should have tasted better. haha.
ok well.3 hours chat? thats never enough for us, I guess.
This time I heard more from you than the other way round. its good that you talk since I talked too much about mine. haha.
I'm not weird creature. lol. What a description.
seriously, honestly, and frankly speaking..
you made me realise lots of things.
about myself.
about other things.
I'm really glad that on the day we met I gave you my small bag.
haha.
and it started off.
Very glad.
I still believe in the "frequency"..not just you feel that, I felt that.
In front of you, I couldn't hide my feelings.
You can easily sense or see that.
everytime when you are trying to confirm, gosh, I die straight. haha.
its just.. I don't know. lol.
omg. very creepy one you know. hehe.
Its good and its bad though. =/
You know, trust yourself(like saying back myself =p),
you always know what you have to do.
the question you asked me, remember?
you are more firm with your decision, at least.
you gave me confidence in trusting myself, and you never doubt
and you told me
and I don't know what else I wanted to say
its just..too much.
I don't know how much I could make it, but I will not disappoint you..


Thank you for everything.
Thank you so much.
besides thank you I don't know what else I can say.
Thanks for the hotlink..I didn't laugh ok!
there's no need of "note" or "letter"..
I'm sure you wrote that to make me cry. I'm sure! lol.
Its just..words or actions can't show how I much appreciate you. I really don't know. but I do appreciate,alot. I'm serious.


p/s:how if I tell you I am hurting?

-End-

Exceptional

...if he's not calling you

...if he's not asking you out

...if he's not dating you

He's just not that into you


Trust..or not trusting?

The guys' fault or the girls' fault?
or not even theirs fault?

Reluctant..to make the first step?

"Just because you think that you know all about girls and you keep distance with them. You are alone!"

"Just like when you have a friend where you know for years, do you have to pay him/her a 4 million 5 thousands cheque to show that you appreciate him/her?"
(I think it sounded something like this)

If a guy treats you like he doesn’t give a shit it’s because he doesn’t give a shit..
(walau *thumbs up* for this! haha)

What if you meet the love of your life? Are you suppose to let that pass you by?

定律中的特例..
或许？

I'm so gonna say this again, movie runs too fast and leaves no room for imagination. All the stuffs keep putting in and I found it hard to digest every single thing. Anyhow, a nice show too. I wish to watch it again.

oh and another quote in the movie..

I had this guy leave me a voice mail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies. It’s exhausting.
(damn yeng I tell you..)


What a guy needs and wants, are different.
But what is of more importance?

“谁说有畏高就不能玩过山车？”
true true. hehe.


I watched House today. Frankly speaking, I barely can understand wtf they are talking. haha. I know my English is poor, but not to that poor right? hmm...


-End-

决定

值得与不值得
想做与不想做

往往一件事你想做，而别人认为不值得的时候
在个人观点来看，还可以算是“想做+值得”

当一件事你想做，可是却连别人和自己都觉得不值得的时候
你..还会不会去做?

徘徊于想做与不想做
值得与不值得
应该或不应该

我..
讨厌这样的十字路口

-End-

束手无策

我想当一次坏人
可以吗？

当言语不能代表什么
不能澄清什么
不能帮到什么
我会选择沉默

我应该要相信自己的决定


你问，我为什么那么气
你知道的，我很在乎
我不会给你任何理由，对于这个问题
我真的不能不去在乎
真的很假
真的很让我作呕
你叫我不要那么坏
你知道我不会那样做的
如果你真的选择相信我
我只会说我想说的，所以是真的
无论你信与否
但我对你有信心


-End-

Worm in your stomach

Got a message from a friend of mine, someone whom I treasure, saying that he was in the library..
I didn't reply and I somehow forgotten about that message when my classes were over..
Went to study room at first and decided to try my luck see whether I can meet him there or not.. I know so clearly that, if I'm gonna go library, we are not going to study.. haha. As usual, we talk and keep to track with each others life and stuff.. Decided to have my dinner with him and we continue our talk..XD I told you we have that kind of "frequency" lor. haha Very freaky la now. XD
Anyway, a nice day with you and.. definitely there's another one..

"How many next times do we have?"

a nice quote from you. lol.

I'm waiting for your question.. =)

Good luck in your exams and all the best..


-End-

相信

当牧羊人再次喊"狼来了"的时候
你还会选择相信他吗?

或许，我应该像你所说的，
要相信自己

-End-

I'm at.. 4 Happy Seasons Restaurant..
with my sister.
She said I love her too much so I left message in her chat box eventhough she's just besides me
so this post is specially for her.
Talking to her while typing this.. haha. XD

She will definitely LOL
k k ..she nagging already.

-End-

于心不忍

对别人好..
就是对自己残忍

..这句话,应该非常熟稀吧


可是你做初一不代表我会做十五
我狠不下心来
但不代表我不会适当的保护自己

-End-

Friday, 17.4.09

Actually this day is just another ordinary day of mine, another normal Friday where I will usually go to gym(since 1 month ago)..
but, Lee San and Abby suddenly told me that they wanted to join me..
so, why not? lol. I got 2 people to accompany me leh.. =p
Went for the 1pm session, after Lee San and I went back to Lee San's house and Abby's Physics practical..
ok the gym was empty besides 3 of us, but, the badminton courts were full. lol.
indirectly telling you that... haha. k nothing. XD
went to canteen 2 to have some refreshment after workout..
decided to wait for my sister until 6pm..
at first I was alone after Lee San and Abby went back.. but I saw Tung after that..
its been time I didn't see him, hor? lol.
So he sat down, in front of me, and his next class is on 6pm as well..
We talked alot..

好啦
我答应你我会写这篇blog给你就会写啦
酱心急的咯
哈哈
其实我觉得你的想法，不错的
真的
从我们的谈话中 发现了一些很不同的看法
就是一些我从来没有想过的
很不一样
虽然我可能无法完全了解
可是我会听你讲的
那天听你讲完后
你是叫我不要想太多啦
但是我觉得你这样的想法有点异想天开勒
我很期待下次见面时我们会谈些什么
你不怪，因为我也很怪

就是因为想太多
所以回到家头有点痛
冲完凉倒头就睡了

就这样延迟了这一篇
呵呵

其实
你也不要常常想着孤独
这样你讲的话就不会自打嘴巴
你也不要想太多
不然下次你就不可以叫我不要想太多
你也不要太压抑
这样会比较帅勒

XD

p/s:管他去死啦 lol.

-End-

CK U SUCKS! lol.
you said i'm sucks.
look at the way he talk to me~!
Sei yeh you. blek
hahahahaha.
Random again.=p

oh I'm so addicted to Aaron recently. He's very cute! Im serious. XD

不予置评

..我会相信我所相信的人与事物

-End-

自我怀疑

我想很多
有时想太多
慢慢的
我开始自我怀疑
因为

..我不想让自己觉得自己是对的


我很变态，我知道..

-End-

Silence

I don't really like Thursday, even since last time, except for some particular day.

and today, I hate it since the moment I woke up.

I hate it. I really really hate it.

no, its nothing to do with what happened at college.
I will remain silent for whatever happened today at college. that's what I learnt.

Ok, back to the thing I hate.

Seriously, don't bother to ask me what happened and so forth, because most probably I wouldn't tell you. but you can always try your luck, maybe you or you is the one that I'm going to tell. who knows? haha.

Lessons were..just like the usual one, but I think no one in our gang has the mood to study as everyone has their own things bugging in their mind.

Went to Nandos, JJ with the gang, Yoon Hung, Jian Shen, Ching Jia, Wooi Liam, Alvin, Wooi Liang, Hao Ting, Wei Chie, Mei Mei, Hui Joo and me.
and 3 thats quite rare to see, Hazel, Andrew and Ming Xian(Idk about the spelling)

We went on with the Yoon Hung supporters and Jian Shen supporters till Nandos. non-stop talking about that. lol.
hmm and many other stuff.can't remember every single one la as I'm old already right, I know I know. XDXD

I ordered the old style chips, and hmm.. suprisingly I'm full till 1 hour ago,(its now 11.54pm) then only I start of taking my dinner. yes, dinner. with the 1/4-1/2 of my normal portion. I'm eating lesser recently. its just that I feel real hungry but when I eat till half, I feel full. is that a good thing? hehe.

p.s. two people cried today. I think its not a top secret anymore since everyone is knowing.

原来可以在大众面前哭泣也是一件好事
至少会多一些人来关心
而这也是为什么会这么做的原因？
我其实很羡慕可以这么做的人
但很抱歉，我做不到
无论之前的种种，那一切一切
把我压得喘不过气来
把我折腾得几乎要崩溃
几乎要把我逼疯
我还是不会在任何人面前哭
因为我还是不能改变我对于在大众面前哭的想法
对不起，我还是做不到
其实可以这样放肆的哭，好像也很幸福

-End-

明抢易挡,暗箭难防

Let me recall abit of what I did on last week till today..

6th April 2009
Went to TS to sing K and watch The Fast and Furious 4 with my gang..

8th April 2009
The boys went to play basketball...

10th April 2009
The gang skipped Biology lecture and went to CC.. boys were playing Counter Strike, girls were doing their own stuff..

11st April 2009
TVC at 4 Happy Seasons Restaurant and help up at TARC..

13th April 2009
Went to gym with Seow Yen and headed to Pizza Hut to join the gang there..
Played Mafia.. hmmm long missed game? hehe.

14th April 2009
Being invited to Abby's house as Indians are having their new year..
Along with Lee San, Chai Liang, Yuin Yee, Tharma and Benjamin in 2 cars..
Have the very first time home cook Indian food, and very first time using hand to eat.
good experience =)
oh.. first time to play with dog as well..
many first times.XD
Mandy, the female dog in her house. She was real fierce at first, and wanted to stab on Yuin Yee's hand. omg.
but later on she was nice and fun to play with. I slowly get the courage to play with the dog when Yuin Yee was playing. Apparently, the dog loves her. =p
the dog very cute, seriously. she knows how to manja one. lol. or all dog does that? I don't know.
I'm random. ignore me. =p
We went back at 7.30pm..
Thanks again to Abby and her family..

15th April 2009
the gang went for badminton at the court which Seow Yen and I booked earlier. from 3pm to 5pm.. The girls weren't playing, just observing and hang around. It was freaking warm inside the court, for your information. went back and have my yam cha session with sister. two roti telur and a cup of teh tarik. The roti telur sucks! lol. then I became very full and just had my dinner like...1 hour ago. its now 12.46am for ur information =p ok I'm random again.


Happening week.
lots of stuff.
lots of thoughts.
lots of studies.

I want to eat McFlurry!!!
(random. lol.)


如果你是在想“明抢易挡，暗箭难防”到底和这篇文章有什么关系
其实真的有
在其中一天得到的其中一个启发
哈哈


-End-

难得

余温

..身上心上都残留着些许的余温
是一种失而复得的感觉

一片一片的记忆拼图
反复的浮现于脑海中
翻来覆辙
仍然无法进入梦乡
可想而知
那是个
很怀念很留恋的一刻

或许我不会再记起当时发生的点滴
但是那一刻所给我的感觉
永远不会遗忘


你说，我太诚实
我想说，只是我不喜欢也不会伪装
已经习惯了以心比心
已经喜欢做真正的自己
已经厌倦了伪装的自己
早在很久以前
摒弃了所谓的伪装
只是因为自己很懦弱
你说是吗?


-End-

Weird

I have had enough sleep..
and..and..I'm sure today is a weird day for me..

Seow Yen@ my ah sok..
she seems to be a little.....not sane today.
seriously, she must be too stress or what.
the conversation between me and her sounded so.. funny?
I don't know how to describe..
I shall upload bit of our conversation here and you will know it. =p

I'm listening to some.. "emotional&relaxing" music.
I'm ok, really ok. I like those songs though.
so soothing and ya, sleepy to a certain extend.
ideal partner when you're studying. =)

Yoon Hung, the one who called me ah ma,
talked to me in MSN. lol.
so rare. =p

Its been raining all day long.
like..since 2pm? until now.

I spill milo to my white shirt, leg and cushion.
gosh.
I hate that milo stain and smell on my shirt la.
I don't even know how to drink. =(
worst of all, I spelled wrongly "smell" to "smile"..
I guess Yoon Hung is the only one who realised it =p

I ate orange...and..nearly, I mean nearly, drop the orange on the floor.
yes yes.
I know I'm old already.
Alzeimer's disease. Parkinson's disease. you name it. =(

CK said he didn't see me online for 2 days?
You sure boh?
Maybe timing not good. XD
eh..2 min=busy?
ngor yat kuen da bao lei geh tao~


It is just.. so weird~!


-End-

混淆

就像《列子》说符篇「亡铁意邻」中的文章所说：
因为自己丢了斧头，怀疑是邻居的儿子所偷，
于是看他走路的样子、脸上的神色、一言一行、一举一动，
都像是偷了自己的斧头一样。
可是等到自己找到斧头之后，
便不再觉得邻居的儿子偷了斧头。
其实邻居的儿子根本没有任何改变，
不管是说话、神色和举动。
只因为自己觉得是，于是他就像偷斧头的人；
等到斧头找到后，他就不是偷斧头的人了。


常常我们也会这样
被自己的想法给骗了
被别人的言语给遮着了
蒙蔽了
乱了
不清楚了
所以
一定要找回那个已迷失了的自己


-End-

Advertise

11am
Woke up and headed to college..library =p

1.30pm
Walk slowly, enjoying the scenery and the wind blowing..to bus stop

2.13pm
My sis finally called me..

3.00pm
Reached Au2..

3.03pm
Very Berry Strawberry~~ whee! thanks to my sis (she's just besides me and insisted me to say that she's here XD)

4.15pm
4 Happy Seasons Restaurant.. prepared to act =p

6.00pm
Freezing

7.22pm
I'm at college..

Thats it for the moment first =)
Oh I haven't eat. lol
despite a small bread I have for breakfast, and my lunch at 5pm which is some french fries.
im sleepy, tired, exhausted whatever you name it.
Slept so late yesterday and I'm here struggling the coldness. lol.
its freaking cold la.
Do you know you used up more energy when its cold?
so, I must eat now. haha. but I still haven't. =p

*edit*

9.00pm
Sis went TBR..so I'm here alone at college with some people rushing for their projects.

10.00pm
Its still very cold..and I still haven't eat. I'm really blur. :S

10.30pm
Packed up and left college..

10.40pm
Reached TBR to pick my sis and her friend up.. (inside her friend's car)

10.50pm
Quickly have my lunch+ dinner in the car..(finally) a very good way to diet as I only have half of my normal portion. but definitely a bad idea.hehe.

11.20pm
Reached home..
I think I don't have any left energy to proceed with other works.. My head is spinning and I find it really difficult to walk in straight line. lol. (sound like a drunk person xD)

11.40pm
Slept. =)


Really salute to those who are doing the projects. Its really a tiring job with all those preparation for just a short exhibition..
*THUMBS UP*


-End-

沉默

我不说话时
常常只是因为我不知道该说什么而已..

仅此而已


-End-

物以类聚

人来人散
不同的人进入了我的生活
然后成为朋友
进而成为好朋友

从一开始的懵懵懂懂
到后来的相识相知

当我们发现
我们不适合对方时

就不应该勉强
不应该委屈的当对方的朋友，甚至好朋友
不应该强迫自己让他人接受

或许不是任何一方的错
只是彼此都属于不同的世界

人来人散
这个不适合
离开
再找寻下一个适合的

一向都是一个自然的形态
不是吗？

我，难道错了吗？

当时间不停的往前走
也有不同的人来了又走
唯有，仅有，只有..
剩下的，才能算是真正的好朋友

也只有那些经得起时间考验的人
能成为生命中难得一遇的好朋友

我的世界，你的世界，是个独立个体，是不同，并没有太多的交叉点。
P(A) and P(B) are mutually exclusive.
P(A and B)= 0


谁都可以做我的朋友
但只有少数的可以做好朋友..
互相了解;互相明白;互相体谅;心灵沟通的那种
并不只是形式上的那种


-End-

Get to know me more

I actually did this like looooooooooooong time ago, before everyone got this chain reaction and decided to post this on their blog..but I decided to only post it now because don't want to follow people. XD

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Quite true huh? Ya. some. =p

-End-

I just, not just, but like few days ago, finished reading a novel, quite thoughtful one, entitled 孔雀森林. Sorry for those who can't read Chinese..I couldn't help in this..

I came across to this book when I went to library the other day.
Kind of excited and shouted (in my heart I mean) when I saw so much of nice novels available at the library.
I wish I could just grab all of them and read them all night long.
but, you know, I can't do that.

So I chose this book and the other book by another author which is one of my favourite as well.

The following will be in Chinese. =)

花了仅三个小时就读完的小说
一本由一个心理测验开始的故事
故事讲述主角从写情书给心意的女生，怎知收信人却不是那个笑容很甜的女生
可是却可以很从容的和那个错的女生相处
到后来因为一些可笑的原因却和那个心意的女生在一起
维持了一段刻骨铭心却不太留恋的关系
然后他的人生转转折折的又遇到了一些在他的生命里留下脚印的人..

不可以透漏太多，要看的话，去图书馆找吧.=p

其实，这个故事可以很真实
或许，你的生活也会有类似的经验也说不来

通常，要揣摩一个人的个性与想法，不是件容易的事
常常你以为你知道，但不然

或许太多时候我们都被一些什么星座书，生肖书，命理书，心理测验等的，蒙蔽了自己的双眼，逃避了自己心里的想法
渐渐的，变成在书上以为应该是真的自己的自己
然后没有了自我

或许我们应该做自己


我是选马的人..可是不会羡慕选羊的人，看不起选孔雀的人，高抬选牛的人，也不会不屑选老虎的人..


看完了另一本叫“灵心”的小说，也不赖。=)


-End-

Very quick update.. I just come to realise its already 12.54am, I thought I just online for 1 hour. ROFL

ok AS Trials were done. My results were done. lol. sucks, I know.

The day after the last paper, Biology paper 1, we headed to TBR for breakfast and headed to Greenbox, Sungei Wang to sing K from 1pm to 5pm.
While on the way to Times Square (we went there first before Greenbox), few cars were racing like The Fast and Furious? haha. almost got accident for every cars.

After sing K session, go on with the movie plan. Stood infront of the cinema with 15 over people feel like blocking the whole road already. and, The Fast and Furious 4 was the choice.

Went to Sushi King to have our late lunch and early dinner. Funny moments and laughters were in the air again.

Went into cinema and watched the movie.

Went back after that together with Hui Joo and Wei Chie in Yoon Hung's car.

then the gang that went out on that day went online straight after we reached home, some even not at home, regardless of tiredness. GREAT. lol

ok, that's it.

the post is done, I know, very quick.
I know, very insincere one. =p

(only used up 5 minutes to update this.)

will edit it if I have the mood. haha. kinda lazy.

-End-

不够成熟 Immaturity

Siew Lee says that.. she has something to tell her friends, whoever is involved.

No, she's very calm now and she's doing the sane thing. just listen to her craps.

Siew Lee says that, she knows that she had changed alot, in a bad way, without her realisation.
Siew Lee says that, she lose herself, and it caused her the major changes.
Siew Lee says that, she wasn't rational, as what she is last time.
Siew Lee says that, she was rather emotional and lose her logical mind, few months back.
Siew Lee says that, she caused alot of problems and alot of misunderstandings.
Siew Lee says that, she hates to lose herself, especially when she is not aware of it.
Siew Lee says that, she knows, now, that last few months she was rather silly.
Siew Lee says that, she is going to get herself back, the one that she and everyone else likes.
Siew Lee says that, she is trying her best to save everything, inspite of the stress she has.
Siew Lee says that, she has to bear the pain even when others think she is not suffering.
Siew Lee says that, she knows that she is immature.
Siew Lee says that, she knows that she is not good in handling things like this, when it is the first time.
Siew Lee says that, she was not sane, few months back, because she couldn't be analytical and solving her problems like when she is dealing with others people problems.

Siew Lee wish to say, Sorry to everyone.
Siew Lee wish to say, she is lucky, because everyone does not leave her, when she is the one that chose to leave everyone.
Siew Lee wish to say, she knows that her friends do care about her and her problems, eventhough they are not directly involved in it.
Siew Lee wish to say, she is glad that she has met bunch of good friends.
Siew Lee wish to say, she is grateful with every friendship of hers.

Siew Lee hopes that, the 2 friends of hers will believe in her words, in her works to save everything.
Siew Lee hopes that, the 2 friends of hers will know that, she really treasures them.
Siew Lee hopes that, the 2 friends of hers and her will be like how they be last time.
Siew Lee hopes that, the 2 friends of hers have faith on her.

Siew Lee knows that, it is rather ridiculous that everything will be solved in a blink of eye.
Siew Lee knows that, it takes time for everything to recover.
Siew Lee knows that, it is kinda impossible for her to convince them with her words now.
Siew Lee knows that, it is rather hard for them to have their whole heart trusted in the friendship now.
Siew Lee knows that, it will somehow be solved.
Siew Lee knows that, it is another hardship that God is trying to give them.

Siew Lee really do mean every single words here.
Siew Lee really do hope everything will be fine.
Siew Lee really do know her rationalness will return to her.
Siew Lee really do know that, that was her fault.
Siew Lee really do realise that she was childish last time.

当局者迷,旁观者清
Siew Lee thinks that she does proves this, due to her immaturity.

Siew Lee will grow, because Siew Lee knows she is going to be rational again.

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Sense

Cally:"That doesn't really makes sense.."
Me:"Yea..I know. but its this way."

Just wish to add another sentence to it..
When do things actually come to its senses..?


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April Fool

It was supposed to be a fool..

but turned out to be a matter that always bugging me.
and ya, I'm glad that we have that talk.
and I'm happy that I made that prank.

.. if I didn't tell you that it was a fool, you wouldn't realise it. =p

I hope you are not angry with it.
hehehe.

the biggest prank that I ever did..
but definitely not a very fun one.

People who tried to fool me:
Adrian- seriously I don't take that as a prank, 'coz I wouldn't be really suprise if you really did that.lol. hehehe.
Lee San-I almost got fooled. lol. but it was funny.=p
Hao Ting- nah..can't fool me! hehehe.

Happy April Fools Day!

p/s: I'm happy, but I couldn't smile, not because what happened, but because its something serious. but, I'm happy. Don't let this thing makes u down. =) again, don't angry..

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